I'm here at work, where else would I be, right? Sitting at the counter, people watching, listening to what other people are saying and just right out bored out of my mind. I didn't get very much sleep as I thought I would and taking half of an ambien seems to have made matter worse than good. I'm back on the ambien thing for a short time until I can get my brain and my nerves settled down. It's been a little tough for me lately just knowing that Ethan's 1st birthday is coming up. I think about where I was this same time last year and it all comes back to the same thing, I was pregnant with my first and only son. Depressing I know, I feel like I'm reliving everything all over again. I miss being pregnant, I don't miss the headaches, that was the worse from being pregnant. Besides the headaches, I think I did ok but the type II and the high blood pressure can go to heck. That made me mad and it made the pregnancy difficult. It didn't help either that I was 39 when I was pregnant. I need to take a break from this right now. I'll come back and write some more later.
