It's the end of the month.....

The 31st already. Where did January go? It's been a long month but it's over. Work is work. Aaron and I celebrated our 7th wedding anniversary with a weekend stay at the La Bellasera Hotel and Suites in Paso Robles, CA. Thanks to my friends Kevin and Mike, it was a wonderful weekend with chocolate cake and champagne. We had lunch at Big Bubba's Bad BBQ that Sunday, walked around the shops in Paso and chilled in the room. It was so relaxing, I was getting bored.

January was a month of birthdays for my friends, Ryan S, Jeff, my dad, Jenn R, Amy and Josh, Jeanell.

Aaron is still currently unemployed, currently looking for work in the graphic arts field, learning a new graphic arts software and helping his friend Toby with digital imagery.

I am continuing with my work out, still going strong. I'm tired right now. Sleepy is more like it. I have had my coffee but it doesn't seem to help. It's almost time to go home. 1pm hurry up!

I'm feeling a little better.....

Thank goodness for the anti-biotics, mucinex and theraflu, I'm starting to feel a little bit better. I was miserable there for a while.

David and Michelle are back and I'm really happy that they are here. I've been working a lot of hours and I need to rest. 2 days off starting tomorrow, I can't wait to just sleep in and not do anything. I worked out lastnight for about 15 minutes. Light work out without any running. Having trouble breathing with this congestion but it's starting to loosen up. It feels so good to feel better.

I went to dinner with April and Josh for his birthday. We had Chili's. That was pretty fun. I like hanging out with them. They are a very fun couple.

It's going to be a great weekend being home and just hanging out.

I'm sick

Sick and at work. I don't really have a choice right now. If I don't work, I don't get paid. That's just the way things are. I'm leaving early now, so that I can get some rest and do this all over again. I go to work tomorrow from 1pm to 5pm. Not a bad shift. I get to sleep in.

Until then, please help me pray that our situation gets better and Aaron finds a job. I'm tired of working already. My immune system is shot. I can't even work out.

What happens to you when........

You are faced with hard decisions to make? When you thought what seemed to be a normal life, feels like not so normal. When money is most of your worries? When a part of you is happy for your friends but deep down, it's making you hurt so bad inside. When the life you knew isn't the life you have right now? When every decision you make, also affects other people?

I have been faced with a lot of things as of late and all I can do, is turn to GOD. I am tired and I am weary. There are days when I have thought of giving up, but I can't. I don't know where to go, I don't know where to hide. I can go on a plane and for a short time, my problems will go away, but when I come back home, they will all come back as well.

My frustration has elevated. My heart aches everyday. I wonder if I'm being punished. I really wish that things are different for me right now. We will see what tomorrow brings.

I'm tired and I am weary. God, please carry me.

It's been a while......

I know it's been a while since I've actually wrote something on here and here I am. The past several months have been tough with the holidays and missing Ethan. I miss him every second but Christmas and New Years was extremely difficult. Every holiday for me is non existent because Ethan isn't here to celebrate it with us.

Aaron and I are faced with some struggle at the moment because Aaron is currently unemployed. I don't feel like discussing that here because it is a private matter but as any family dealing with unemployment, it's been hard. I have been working more hours and have not really had a decent day off where I can have a little time to myself to do nothing.

Today, I will be traveling to Bakersfield to do a Pampered Chef show for my friend, sister, daughter Estelle. She just recently had a little boy and I will meet him for the first time today. I'm excited and scared at the same time but I need to go on and be able to do this for myself.

I will try to keep everyone update with the latest and greatest and would appreciate prayers for Aaron and I that he find employment anywhere soon. God has the answers, I know that. He is a good and loving God and all things come from him. I hope that God will grant Aaron a nice decent paycheck soon.